I haven't been writing much. Oh wait! Actually, that's a lie. It would appear this way
though, cos I haven't posted much on my 'Restoring Destiny' blog. A
crying shame if you ask me. I have been writing though, just nothing
that I can put up on my blog. Or have I? I have written some poetry. I
wrote an ode to my unborn daughter, so she knows that I was thinking of
her even before she was conceived. So she knows that I was praying for her even before I met her father.
I want her to be the best person that she can be and reach for all her dreams. Most importantly I want her to not be a figment of who I desire her to be. A created, unrealistic image of who I want her to become, because it was my alternative life path. Oh no. I think parents struggle to allow their kids to be exactly who they were created to be. I too will have a hard time at it, but I am praying now already to help make it easier on myself.
My parents always understood that I was 'special', so they allowed me to explore, to learn from the school of life and watched me as I listened to my soul, many days and many nights over very many months unearthing my destiny.
I had a meeting this morning and the guy said to me: 'Well Osh, you are the only one of us that's actually living your dream.'
Wow, even though I struggle more times than not, I truly am blessed to be able to say I am sacrificing comfort, security and stability to do what I want to do. To do what I need to do, what I was born to do.
The path is crooked and stony and many times insurmountable and I have to sit on this rock along the path and think long and hard whether to continue this climb or to head over to the tarmac road and lose everything my heart beats for.
God knows us before we are conceived so I know this fluttering in my spirit when I write screenplays, poetry, figure out in my head how to flesh out a character and when I am on set or in the edit suite I know this is where I was born to be. This is the only place I can be.
So big deal I suck at finance and can't read a self help book unless I read it sporadically over 2-3 years. I was born to be right here, right now and pray for the lineage to come after me, so they too can live what God placed inside them before their very conception.
This concept never seizes to amaze me. To be known before conception. Amazing.
